Baby Mine

Darn it. I had a whole blog written and made a dumb move and lost it all.....I hate when I am a dummy.... Here we go again. Hope I can say it how I wanted again. I have a lot of updating to do, but I was thinking about some things last night.

This week I came across the blog of a momma who buried her 4 month old baby girl. Then encountered similar experiences from other blogs off the comments of this one. My heart ached for these women I don't know all week.

I didn't think I would end up having the opportunity to marry. I was an old bride! :)Then because of that and health reasons I didn't think I would ever be blessed to be a mother. In a blink of an eye it seems, I am a wife and mother to two special boys. They are all my miracles.

In the grind of daily life it is easy to let that slip your mind. I don't ever forget how blessed I am, but the dirty floors, the screaming babies, and other things come more forefront. It gets hard and frustrating. I never understood what people meant when they said sleep while you can. I never knew real tiredness until I became a mother, and I sure thought I had.

Asher didn't sleep very well yesterday. During his only good nap, I made a cd of lullabies and baby boy songs. So last night when he would NOT go to sleep, at about 11, I laid in my bed with him in my arms and played the cd. Three songs in my sweet boy finally drifted off. But I just laid there, listening to the words of every song, and pondering my journey of motherhood and the privilege it is to have my two wonderful boys. I thought of what Kellie was feeling, not having her Maddie to hold in her arms anymore. I thought of how lucky I am to have spit up to wipe away, laundry to do, bottles to wash....I am sure she would give anything to have those things back, along with her dear sweet baby. I don't care how tired I am, how much work there is to do, it is a joy. I am going to try not to complain about these things ever again!! I didn't go to sleep until the songs were over, and then slept peacefully with my baby in my arms.

One was Blessed by Elton John.

(for Asher)

Hey you, you're a child in my head
You haven't walked yet
Your first words have yet to be said
But I swear you'll be blessed
I know you're still just a dream
your eyes might be green
Or the bluest that I've ever seen
Anyway you'll be blessed
And you, you'll be blessed
You'll have the best
I promise you that
I'll pick a star from the sky
Pull your name from a hat
I promise you that, promise you that, promise you that
You'll be blessed
I need you before I'm too old
To have and to hold
To walk with you and watch you grow
And know that you're blessed.


Other songs: Baby Mine, Lullaby (goodnight my angel), Beautiful Boy, Blackbird, Godspeed(Sweet Dreams), He Gave Me You, Hold YOu In my arms, I See Me, and so on.

"Godspeed (Sweet Dreams)"
for (Caleb)

Dragon tales and the "water is wide"
Pirate's sail and lost boys fly
Fish bite moonbeams every night
And I love you
Godspeed, little man
Sweet dreams, little man
Oh my love will fly to you each night on angels wings
Godspeed
Sweet dreams
The rocket racer's all tuckered out
Superman's in pajamas on the couch
Goodnight moon, will find the mouse
And I love you
Godspeed, little man
Sweet dreams, little man
Oh my love will fly to you each night on angels wings
Godspeed
Sweet dreams
God bless mommy and match box cars
God bless dad and thanks for the stars
God hears "Amen," wherever we are
And I love you
Godspeed, little man
Sweet dreams, little man
Oh my love will fly to you each night on angels wings
Godspeed
Godspeed
Godspeed
Sweet dreams



My Beautiful Boys